Ok, let’s start from the very beginning.
She meets him at her job. He seems to be a good guy, even though there are people who think he’s a dull. There are very important differences about them, but she doesn’t really cares, she never cared enough about differences to get scared with new ones.
She’s a fancy lady from the big city. Sometimes she hates the big city, but she’s been learning how to relate with it, she can’t deny its facilities and good services. She loves her hills; she loves her job that only matters in a city like a big one. Sometimes she wonders if she wouldn’t be happy in a small place, spent all her teenage in a small coastal place, and sometimes she misses the lull and the tranquility which are never present in the big city.
He’s a cowboy from the countryside. He loves horses; he loves cows. He loves to be in the middle of nothing, hunting frogs and others strange species which he swears taste good in a barbecue. He has less money than her; he’s never been in foreign places and can’t speak other languages; his family is not so cult and polite as her, but she doesn’t care. She’s been trough similar situations before.
And with all these differences, he seems to be happy in a way she’s not. And mysteriously when he smiles to her, she feels safe and protected in a way she’s never felt before. She thinks that he could take care of her. If he wants to.
Someway they start a relationship. But the job is over, and they have to maintain the relationship trough a 300 miles road. She seems to be ready for that. But he’s not. Although he’s 12 years older than she, sometimes he look’s like a child. And she’s never been so patient with children.
They broke up without saying a word. She gets disappointed and doesn’t return his calls anymore. He seems to get the idea and stops calling her. But sometimes he sends her messages in which he tells her how he’s been missing her. Sometimes she’s cute with him. Sometimes she’s not.
She travels with a girlfriend and meets a guy. He’s German, he’s cute, he’s attentive, he’s cult. He’s a backpacker that has almost been in every tiny winy place all over the world. He treats her with a kindness that the cowboy has never treated her. They get separated, each one continues on one’s way. He comes back to German; she comes back to the big city. But they don’t stop communicating.
The job that united her and the cowboy is ready to happen again. Some days before traveling to work with him she receives the notice that the german is coming in some months.
She and the cowboy meet again. He was very anxious about her coming. He starts to treat her like a princess, with all the glories. She can’t help on wondering what would happen if she let him kiss her. And she lets him kiss her. And it’s great. And they live a month together, during the job, like a real couple.
But she can’t be blind to all those differences again. And she starts to ask her self, what are you doing? At the same time, he seems to be more in love than ever. She decides to think about it when the month is over.
The month is over, she comes back to the big city, but the cowboy is decided to not let her forget him. He keeps on calling her and telling her that he misses her. And she starts to get nervous: what about the german guy? He already bought the flight to come to see her. And even though they’ve never even kissed before, he’s giving her enough reasons to believe that it will happen as soon as he comes.
Well, it’s a week to the german guy arrives. She’s been planning all the details about the trip they’ll do together. She arranged a great show to both go together. She’s even on a diet to meet the german. And suddenly the cowboy comes to the big city to make her a surprise. And she wants to see him, so they meet. And they have a fascinate-glorious sex night.
And he tells her things that he never told before. He asks her if she have ever betrayed someone. He asks her if he could hardly break her heart. He tells her that he’s afraid of loving her.
She wants him to stop talking, but he doesn’t seem to share her wish. And when he goes away, she starts to think if she could love him like she loved before; at the same time, she wants to receive the german guy. She wants to see what will happen, she feels she needs to take the risk. She has good thoughts about him.
She's always been a love-lover idea. But now she's wondering, "would it be possible to love two at the same time?". And she can't help on wondering what would happen if...
Secretly she thinks that the german could offer her things that the cowboy couldn’t. The german guy has culture. He speaks 3 languages. He knows places in all over the world. He could save her in a way the cowboy just can’t.
Secretly she dreamt about moving over with the german. About having the foreign life she always wanted to, but has never been courageous to search alone. But the cowboy keeps on playing the seduction game.
Its 2 days to the plane arrives.
She sits down and writes some things.
She needs to sleep.
